“Jay,listen to me i’m your mother!”
“Fuck mother!,just go
away!”
She froze,can’t move
her heart pumped fast
like it’s gonnna jump out from it’s place
her son words still
playing on her head “Fuck mother!,just go away!”
she just can’t believe,still can’t believe her son saying a
word like that to her.
She went to her room,her head surround the room,searching
for something.then there it was,a tiny teddy bear sitting on the corner of her
cupboard.she hug that little teddy bear,then she hear a sound,a sound of
her son,his little jay,screaming her name “mommy”,her
memory playing back to 14 years ago,the time when her little jay smile,and jump
and called her self with a smile and laugh on his face,a time when she still
see a smile on jay’s face.she hugged that tiny teddy bear tight like she doesn’t
want to lose it,then she cry and called his named begging him to back to
smile,begging him to love her like how he loves her when he was 3.
“Fuck!,you lil’ bastard!go away from this place,you’re not needed anymore!”
“but,le’me fixed it sir”
“go!”
Then he go from that place,he’s full of anger now,he kicked
anything that annoyed his way
He hate the world,he wanted to die,he think he is too little
for the world,then he lay on the building
He lit his cigarettes,then threw his memories back to 3 hours ago a time when he get fight with his
mother
“Fuck mother!,just go away!”
Then he smiles to himself,mocking.He just can’t think he
can’t say a word llike that to his mom.
Suddenly he remember his friend’s words
‘watch ur words once it’s out it only be forgiven not forgotten’
He close his eyes,enjoying the sensation of his cigarettes
comes into his lungs...
When he opened his eyes he a little bit chocked of his own
smoke,his eyes analyzed his place,the last he remember he was still on an old
building,then when he open his eyes he is in his house,he’s a little bit
frightened,’what the fuck happened with
me?’ he was still thinking,until he hear a sound,a little boy sound called
his mother name.he follow that voice until his catch a little boy jump into his
mother lap kissing her cheeck,’who is
he?’,
“Mommy can i blew this
candle off?”
“not..not yet honey”she kissed that little boy forehead
“but,when???...”he
pouted his mouth
“nah...now you can
blow the candle”
“hurraaaaayy...”when
he start to blow the candle,his mother stop him
“wait jay,you haven’t
said a wish yet”
“oh,right i forgot
that...”he close his eyes then blow the candle
“what are you wishing
for jay?”his mother ask softly
“i wish that i can
loves you the rest of my life,and never be naughty anymore”
“good boy”his mother
kissed his forehead then hugged that boy
He was froze there watching a part of his past life,his eyes
burning and started blur he can’t hang his tear anymore he closed his eyes then
when he open his eyes he was there laying on an old building,his eyes wet his
heart pumped fast,he run,run as fast as he can run to his house all memories
that has been past on this day play and rewind like a film strip,his
birthday,his fight,his birthday,his fight...that making him insane.Until he was
there standing in front of his front door,then he in searching for his
mother,until he found that his mother room was opened a little he take a little
peek on that room,he found his mother sitting on the edge of her bed hugging a
little teddy bear tight crying,his heart broke,then he break through the room
kneeling to his mother.
“mom, i was sorry for this day,i reggreting my words please
forgive me...i won’t..i won’t break your heart,i...i’ve sinned mom,please forgive
me”
Her eyes opened wide when she hears her door opened hard
then she shocked when she see his son kneeling on her,it was a first time she
see her soon cry like that since 14 years ago,she help his son standing then
hug him tight,his son still crying.
“it’s okay jay,it’s okay i’ve been forgive you...”
She stroke his son back trying to comfort him,until she
feels her son stop crying
“mom,i’m sorry”he was still sobing
Then she smiles softly huging his son and kissing his
forehead....
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